Dear Aaron and Mariella,
I love you and miss you dearly, more than you will ever know. Aunt Lauren, Jimmy, Cousin Courtney and Grandma Connie do too. Our hearts have been broken since we lost custody and were not allowed contact with you.
Every day when I wake up, you guys are on my mind. I think about you all day long and I just hope that you are in a safe place, in the best care, hopefully still with Ms. A, she is really a good person and would have your best interests at heart.
You two are always in my thoughts, even when I'm going to sleep and enter dreamland, I see you.
Please, do not think that I chose this life for us. No, no, I fought the case every step, but I was no match for what I was up against. The family court is corrupt. Their jobs depend on taking children and placing them in foster care and then adopting them out is a big bonus and it really helps them at their job. And do remember when I told you we need money to live? That most grown-ups have jobs where they go to work at everyday? Because job's provide money, and money is how we are able to buy food, and toys and secure our homes and keep the lights on.
Life is not fair. Have faith my children, put your trust and prayers into God's hands. As I have, that I hope we meet again sooner than later.
I look up at the same moon each and every night, the same moon you can see. And if you are sad or confused, just know that I am looking up at the same moon every night.
I'm so sorry, mommy failed- the case workers decided that you couldn't go back home with me, even though that was what should have happenend.
You are everything to me. I know you guys love me just as much as I love you, with all our hearts. You are with me always, in my heart and I am with you in yours.
I wish you healing and that you keep hope alive for now.
The world can be cruel sometimes.
You have each other, take care and love each other. You make me proud every day, I know how special, how smart and how good, both of you are. You came from me. You were a gift from God. You are both meant to be here. God has a plan for each of us.
We will be together in Heaven and soon here too, I promise. Keep pushing on with your life always do the best you can and remember that I love you with all my heart.
I'm just so sorry that we can't be together now and always. There are so many things I wanted to teach you, for now I will be missing out on these times to watch you grow.
Love,
Mommy
